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I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure.  I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at bethylovesandy@yahoo.com

My Blog Title Verse

"For the Lord gives wisdom. From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." Proverbs 2:6 NKJV 
The Message translation puts it this way "God gives out Wisdom free, is plainspoken in Knowledge and Understanding."

Verse of the day

Friday, April 11, 2014

Long long ago, in a galaxy not so far away...

When I started my senior year of college I really didn't know what I wanted to do with myself yet. I had "hurried", taken summer classes, and was going to graduate before I even turned 21. I had expected to have met my husband by then. I assumed God would have given me detailed directions about what the next step was. But when the fall semester started I was clueless. And worried.
 Just a few weeks in, I met Andy and only weeks after that he gave me a black leather journal. He bought it specifically for the mission trip I was taking to India in October, so I could record what I saw, felt, and experienced.
 And let me tell you, I recorded.
 Probably too much... no one ever needs to read it but me.

 But having stumbled upon it now 14 years later, I am so glad to have it.

 My senior year is recorded in detail. Lots of emotional ups and downs. Reading it now, looking back. I can recognize the reasons behind almost everything. But at the moment so many things seemed heartbreaking. Staggering.

 I certainly hope my emotions have calmed with age!

 I kept writing after I graduated. First full time job and apartment. The planning of the wedding. The terror of Andy's Basic Training - our first time apart. I vented through our first military move, and half way through my first pregnancy, then suddenly just stopped. One more entry, 2 1/2 years later while pregnant again.

 And that is it.

 Later, I spent years writing here in blogland.

 But now, where did the words go? Why won't they come out any more?

 I am seeking them.

 Until then, a poem I wrote just weeks after Andy and I started dating, at 3am, of course. I am highly amused that I felt the need to record not just the date, but the time also. A bit of my OCD coming out perhaps?

What an interesting word
A relationship cannot be 
It frees itself
exposes itself

The elements: wind, rain, ice, sun
   they are harsh
 It doesn't care

The people: supportive, accusing, condescending
   they are vocal
 It doesn't care

The circumstances: time, place, responsibilities
  they are demanding. 
 It doesn't care

It is new and amazing
yet frightening and stressful
It is beginning and end, light and dark, best and worst
 Except contained

Lots of crazy emotions going on back then. :) It does not make me miss college! I am glad, though, that the "un-contained relationship" featured in this poem turned out so nicely.

 Anyone else want to share college memories?


Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Welcome 2014

 Strange really, how easily that flows. 2014. It seems such a short time ago that we were concerned that changing from 1999 to 2000 would cause computer problems around the world. (Or perhaps bring the end of time?) Now we are more then a decade into this "new" century.

 I guess that is always how it goes. Time flies, and all that jazz.

 I must admit that I am wanting time to speed a little this year. Just a bit.
 I promise to enjoy the moments as they come, but until April I don't think I will be asking time to slow down!

December was definitely full, and fast, but also fabulous! It always is a crazy month, not just because of the usual Christmas stuff, but because there are LOTS of birthdays in Dec in our family.

 Speaking of which, let me tell you a story. Mom called to tell me about a cute old movie she had started watching on TV and didn't get to finish. Gave me a few details and asked if maybe I could find out what it was called (!) and get it for her birthday. She never asks for anything so I was very eager to look. The details she gave were plenty for me to find the title, and it was actually available several places, but when I saw the cover I was surprised.
 On Black Friday I had picked up a four pack of Christmas movies, planning to give them to mom. Turns out, one of the movies in the four pack was THE ONE she wanted. What are the chances? Neither of us had ever heard of it before, I grab it on a whim, she watches part of it on TV and Voila, a very Happy Birthday was accomplished.
 The movie was called "It happened on 5th Ave", from 1947, and was part of this 4 pack if you want to check it out. Adorable!

 I would love to post pictures, but since my internet dropped me three times while I was trying to Skype with Andy I am thinking that uploading isn't a good idea right now.
 Hope your first day of 2014 has been wonderful.