Moment by moment

 It's always strange to move "home" again. Every time Andy deploys I come back to mom and dad, and every time I am reminded of how quickly time passes.
 He isn't technically deployed this time, just preparing to leave for training - but here I am, back with the parents and looking back for a moment on memories.

 We pulled out old Christmas ornaments and decorations. Boxes and boxes of them were dragged from the depths of the attic. Then they were hastily opened, glanced at, and shoved back into the back. Only a few select things were kept out, and new things took their place.
 Change.
 My baby sister will turn 23 on Wednesday. The baby. When Andy and I started dating she was only 10. She has moved home again for a bit, but has been a grown woman living on her own for several years now. Somehow I missed that. She is still just a little girl, right? No...
 Change.
 I ran into someone at Target today wearing a new sweatshirt from my alma mater. When I attended it was a small, private, baptist college. Close knit and homey. It is now a multi-campus university with a football team!
 Change.
 My children are so much more independent. They made their Christmas wish lists. Canaan wrote  his own Christmas letters. They even picked out Christmas presents for each other and paid for them by themselves.
 Change.
 Even our Christmas cards this year are full of change - announcing Andy's switch from AF to Army, from enlisted to officer.
 Changes are swirling around me and I seem to be having a hard time settling into a routine.
 So, moment by moment, I am just breathing in... and breathing out.

 Just when I think I have gotten use to it, something else changes! Oh well - let's just see what tomorrow brings.  I know it will bring a reminder that I shouldn't write this late at night when I am emotional!