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I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure.  I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at bethylovesandy@yahoo.com

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"For the Lord gives wisdom. From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." Proverbs 2:6 NKJV 
The Message translation puts it this way "God gives out Wisdom free, is plainspoken in Knowledge and Understanding."

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Thursday, August 29, 2013

Fresh clean socks

 I had a rough day today. Don't even really know why... although Andy says it is hormones and even from several 1000 miles away he tends to know me best.

 You see, I tried to be a "big girl" and do what I really didn't want to.
 I put away the laundry.

 Yes, literally.

 Big deal, right?

 But you see, having a stack of Andy's clean clothes sitting in the laundry room made it seem like he was still here. Putting them away and knowing that there won't be any more feels so final. And suddenly 8 months seems overwhelming.

 I had plenty to do today. Leaders meeting for homeschool co-op. School. Soccer practice. Feed the boys and clean up the kitchen.

 But even with a full schedule I was distracted.

 Because what I wanted to do was quit. Pack my bags and go "home". Cry for a nice long time, then live the alternate life I have when Andy is gone.

 I even talked to Mom, who reminded me that, although I am always welcome to come, my boys have a life here.

 That is very important. Their life is here.

 When I was reading to the boys before bed we were in the book of 2 Chron. An army is coming to attack that is much too big to stand against. More then the Israelites could even dream of defending against. But as they pray they are assured of God's deliverance. His presence in their lives. 20:12 says, "We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you."

 Do not know what to do.... That sums up my feelings right now.

 Eyes on You.... because that is where deliverance (and truth) comes from.

  What form that deliverance will come in I cannot yet say. But for now I need to play the part of the tooth fairy and that is enough to get me through tonight.

 Tomorrow will come when it is ready and I will be ready for it when it comes.

 Thanks for letting me vent!


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