“Put your heart and soul into every activity you do, as though you are doing it for the Lord himself and not merely for others.”
Colossians 3:23 TPT
My activities recently have been “boring”. Work in the garden. Do the dishes and laundry. Try to get rid of things and organize the things I can’t let go of.
Paint and paint and paint.
Our house isn’t that old, but the interior paint is beginning to show it’s age. We have, step by step, room by room, primed and painted almost the whole house in the three years we have lived here. The ceilings are complicated but not horrific. The walls are easy. Corners between doors are probably then hardest part, but we have created beautiful teamwork as a family to accomplish them. Truly, they aren’t that horrible.
But I DESPISE painting. Or, if you asked me a few weeks ago, that is what I would have told you.
The OCD part of my personality struggles with the details that cannot be perfect, because perfection does not exist. The eco friendly passion within me struggles with the fear of damaging the earth.
That photo, of paint rollers lined up neatly next to the primer in the middle of the job, shows some personality traits of multiple people in this home.
Yet, the scripture verse insisted that I pay attention to it.
“Whatever you do”...
What about what I am doing next?
I am suppose to go into brain surgery “working for the Lord”. This next section of my life, that I have very little control of, well, I have control over how I go into it.
My epilepsy had been problematic this last 4-6 weeks. The extra meds aren’t being enough, again. I had three seizures on Tuesday. I now occasionally have seizures I don’t recognize, and don’t have aura’s to warn me about...but Andy or the boys “discover” me confused and shivering afterwards with no remembrance of what happened. We don’t know how many of those I have had... just how many have been noticed.
So, as frightening as brain surgery is, it also sounds promising.
“...For the Lord”.
Or if you prefer...
“She girds herself with strength And makes her arms strong.”
Proverbs 31:17 NASB
Both wrapping yourself and girding yourself require the strength to already be there, to be provided to you. I am not claiming it as my own, merely reaching out and holding on with both hands.
I have learned to appreciate painting the house. I have discovered how to enjoy laundry and dishes and daily chores. I am choosing to approach brain surgery with the full passion of hope, doing all things with my attitude focused on Him.
Join me?
One week left.
3 comments:
Love your heart and wisdom. Praying so much. Have been trying to focus on being content with the blessings in front of me each day. Life is so precious. So grateful for you dear friend!
Your post made me think of this program. I hope it encourages you. https://www.reviveourhearts.com/podcast/revive-our-hearts/how-show-strength-and-dignity/
Also, your hair is growing out nicely. I will add you to my prayer list.
You are a courageous woman. That was my sisters words when she found out I was having surgery for my scoliosis, I was born with it and it finally took its toll on my L5-L7 so I decided to let go.
13 hours of surgery and God held my hand every minute.
You Bethany are a courageous woman - you inspire more people than you know, with your faith and Gods backing you are completely protected. Godspeed my dear cyber friend. Prayers going up! 🙏🏻
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