So, that leaves me with words, and words alone. Like I have a problem coming up with words!
Tomorrow is a slightly "big day" for us here. Andy leaves for MEPS, again. Who would have thought, 9 years ago when he left for the AF MEPS that he would be doing it again. But, the Army wants him to do it again, so we will. They will poke him, and prod him, and make sure he is healthy and sane. He already had his PT test. It was slightly amusing to watch. He was out there with about 15 other people, kids really. They were youngins, hoping to join the Army, ready to take the PT test. Andy was this "old man" in comparison.
Yet, he smeared them all. Big buff man on the push-ups. Nice strong sit-ups. He actually lapped some of them completely in the run. I was so proud of my baby.
After MEPS we will just have to wait for his board interview. Hopefully that will be next week - but no guarantees. As the slogan goes, "Hurry up and wait". That one goes across the board, AF, Army, Navy, National Guard - I think they all live by that motto!
As for adoption news... well, that one is harder to talk about. Our homestudy for Benin expired in March. We did not choose to renew it. Right now we don't know what we are doing. If someone called me tomorrow and said, "I know a baby that needs a home", I would be filling out paperwork within the hour. I already have a lawyer picked out, and someone to do a local homestudy standing by. But, that doesn't happen very often, and we are not actively pursuing it. DFCS is an option, and something we are very willing to do. But that takes time that just isn't in Andy's schedule right now. His hours are insane right this minute, and he is hoping to leave for Army Officer training school within the next six months or so, which leaves us waiting still.
Confused is perhaps the best word to describe my feelings about adoption right now, because I thought I heard God so clearly say Africa: however, for now we just take one breath at a time, enjoy every second we have with the boys we are blessed with, and wait and see where God takes us.
Tomorrow I get to spend several hours playing with a baby, getting my fill of cuddles, and pacifiers, and bottles and burping. Then, I get to give him back and sleep in peace. I guess I will be thankful for that...
For now, I need to get to sleep. I better be well rested if I am going to be holding that precious cargo tomorrow!