It seems to be a recurring theme around here for me to write like crazy for a day or two, then disappear completely for a week. Once again, I literally went an entire week without touching the internet at all. No blog. No FB. Not even E-mail.
While it is free-ing as it is occurring, the backlash of messages you must try and dig back out of later really is slightly overwhelming.
But, I had fun visiting with
and my friend Amanda (whom I didn't get a single picture of... just of her daughter!)
- so it was a good week.
I don't want to ramble too much, after a week off, but I am overflowing with words.
Let me share a quick verse. 1st Corinthians 10:13 says "No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it."
I think we, as humans, like to focus on that first part "He will not let you be tempted...." and leave off that last bit about "beyond what you can bear". And I don't think it means temptation to sin in just the obvious, blatant ways like steal, kill and destroy type things. I think The Message version puts it nicely "No test or temptation that comes your way is beyond the course of what others have had to face. All you need to remember is that God will never let you down; He will never let you be pushed past your limit; He'll always be there to help you come through it." So, even the sin of doubting His will for your life - that temptation will not be more then you can bear. More then I can bear. That is reassuring.
I feel like I am having quite a few tests right now. I really wish I could hang onto that first part - saying that because I have Jesus, my life will be all peaceful and easy. But that isn't what it says. Bummer, huh?
The Bible does say, however, that He will be with me every step of the way. Until I can figure out where He wants my feet to land, I will try to hang here, feeling like I am in mid stride with no where to put my foot, KNOWING that my Savior is right beside me. In fact, He is even holding my foot up - so it doesn't get a muscle cramp while I wait.
He will provide a way out - He will help me come through it.
In the meantime... Still human. Still hard to wait. Still lots of unanswered questions as to where God is taking us, and why we have to take this exact road.... but the assurance that we never walk alone is priceless. We are "standing up under it". We will take one day at a time, as time ticks away.