My friend Amanda texted this verse to me this morning.
“Remain in My love.”
How is it that friends know what we need before we do?
The MSG translation says “Make yourselves at home in My love.”
I have been at home in His love from before I have memories.
This picture of my parents and I speaks to me so much right now.
Look how young they are! They have so much still to learn, about Jesus, and each other, parenting and the body of Christ.
But they had already given me to Jesus.
I was already “abiding” in His love. (NKJV)
Hold onto that, please, while I change subjects.
This is my new insulin pump. I got it, and a new CGM, on Wednesday.
The potential for the teamwork is beautiful, and I am hopeful, but learning new tech while recovering from several other recent medical “issues” is complicated. I might be slightly overwhelmed.
And after a beautiful three weeks off, the seizures decided they were ready to come back early Thursday morning.
My blood sugars have been ALL OVER the place, and this new machine is set to “tell me” every time. The seizures were more exhausting then usual, just because I am weak after a few weeks off. Mom was having trouble with her heart, again, and a relative of Andy’s passed away yesterday and my nephew was having some sort of allergic reaction, over and over, at 5 months old.
I was discouraged.
I was letting discouragement win.
Then, I greeted this morning with that first verse in a text and very shortly after the verse shown on my insulin pump picture popped up in my reading.
“Haven’t you learned to trust (me) yet?”
I laughed.
I might have cried a little too.
I think my Jesus might have to be frustrated with me.
“Still no trust Bethany?”
Then I looked up at the mantle, at the sign Andy bought me just a few days ago, the reminder that I can do this...because I don’t actually have to do anything.
Just let faith be bigger than fear.
Remember that I can trust Him.
Hold onto that promise that I am “at home” in His love.
That is so simple.
It is enough.
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