This morning when I went to take my morning dose of meds my daily dispenser was empty.
I pulled out my multitude of bottles and started pouring and dispersing.
Some days are "red days". Some days are "orange days". Some meds are for every day - they are usually plain white, or slightly yellow... but they don't count in the color scheme.
Canaan was helping me organize, and count, and make sure everything went where it was needed. I had to laugh after we were done.
How many six year olds spend their morning shaking pill bottles for their mother I wonder?
Truly, I don't HAVE to take all of them. Vitamins are just extra. One of my multi-vitamins is orange, thus the orange day - I added a B complex to that day too. My other multi is red. Cranberry caplets go on that day, continuing the red theme, and to try to prevent UTI's.... which sometimes works. Cinnamon caplets, which are brown don't really go with either color, but they usually stay with red. Cinnamon helps metabolize sugar, and as a diabetic that is wonderful. I even have a system cleanse right now, because Andy bought it, and rejected it, so I am giving it a try.
The ones I have to have are for seizures, and my thyroid. But even those I probably would not die if I was forced to live without them. Be uncomfortable, yes. Very unhappy, yes. But die.... not for a long time.
This, however, I would die fairly quickly without.
Thank God for modern medicine. We are coming up really soon on the 18 year anniversary of my use of Insulin.
There are still days every once in awhile when I ask God why in the world he hasn't healed me yet. There are moments on occasion when I despise living with diabetes. (like this week when I am on my second round of antibiotics for a very basic infection that my body is just too weak, or riddled with irregular blood sugars, to fight on its own!) But in all honestly, those moment are few and far between. I like my life, with all of it's physical weaknesses and faults. The mental and spiritual weaknesses on the other hand... well I am doing my best to work on those.
Diabetes, and the responsibility I was required to have in order to LIVE, have shaped me. Helped make me who I am.
I am so thankful for that.
I learned years ago to sing that old Twila Paris song "This thorn" and mean it, at least in regards to my diabetes.
Now I have to learn to sing it, and mean it, about Topamax and Lamictal.
One pill at a time.
One injection at a time.
One day at a time.