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I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure.  I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at bethylovesandy@yahoo.com

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"For the Lord gives wisdom. From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." Proverbs 2:6 NKJV 
The Message translation puts it this way "God gives out Wisdom free, is plainspoken in Knowledge and Understanding."

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Wednesday, April 01, 2009

A twilight recap

 I read the Twilight series again. All four books. I am pretty sure I started on Thursday. I finished Breaking Dawn (book 4) on Tuesday night. Then, I stayed up and read the rough draft of Midnight Sun online last night. 
 Of course, it did help that I spent at least 10 hours in the car over the weekend, and I did none of the driving - so other then changing out movies for my kids, and occasionally talking to my parents, I had a lot of time for reading. 

 This time through was different for me. The first time I read this series, I didn't know how it was going to end. This time, I did. 
 The first time through the series, my very own "Edward" was right there next to me. When the emotions ran too strong, I could set the book down, and hold him. This time, my "Edward", my own true love, is far far away. 
 It certainly made it harder to read, not having him to hold onto every once in awhile.

 ~~~~Spoiler Alert~~~~
Don't read too much more if you haven't read the books, and don't want to know too much about what happens.
 In that part of New Moon, after he leaves her, and the pages are blank, except for the name of the month....
 I have felt that.

 Time dragging. Empty and bare. Never for a months at a time like that - because my "Edward" doesn't leave me forever, or by choice - but I have felt that complete emptiness. When I go several days in a row without getting to hear his voice. When the mail comes, once again, and there is nothing there from him. When I wake up in the middle of the night, and it feels like it has been pitch black for so very very long. 
 I have felt that nothingness that it seems she is trying to describe. 

 I love the beautiful romance in the Twilight series. I think it very well written. The characters are flawed, while beautiful. Strong, but not perfect. They depend on each other, while still able to survive on their own. Barely able to survive - which is what makes it such an emotional series - but still, ABLE to survive. That is an important thing to know, deep in your soul. That you are connected as one, but still, somehow, a viable, living, breathing individual. 

 I sometimes struggle with the thought of young, impressionable girls reading these books. I love them, because I am incredibly blessed. I have my Edward. Somehow, with all those amazingly trite "Mikes" out there, and even with the incredible, but not meant for me "Jacobs", I found my Edward.  
 And it is even better in real life. So much better then being a vampire. So much stronger then what can be described in a book. What is real cannot be written. It cannot be put in words. Words, as much as I adore them, and abuse them, and try to use them to their full potential, words just cannot do justice to love. 
 Love, at it's purest, simply cannot be written. 

 So I have to worry, just for a second, about these young people, who haven't yet found love. There are a lot of NOT Edwards out there... if that makes any sense at all. I only hope that they learn from this book that sometimes love does not look like you expect, or sound like you expect. It may be a different shade, or a different shape. An entirely different direction then you thought you were headed just moments before you ran into it head on. I don't want them to get an incorrect picture in their head, and walk right by their Edward. 
 I could have.
 I might have. 

 I am so very glad I didn't. 

 Love is worth changing direction for. Worth looking twice at. 
 Bella was willing to change herself for her love. Some people are offended by that idea - thinking that "real love" wouldn't ask you to change. I disagree. I think that is beautiful. She kept her core - she didn't change the things that made her who she was. But she was willing to change some things - in this case, being human. She remained kind, and generous, strong and giving. She was still Bella - simply in Vampire skin now. 

 Love is a lot of things. You know who says it best...

 "Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Loves bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends." 1 Cor. 13:4-8



N said...

You are so smart to be able to put such a positive spin on this incredible depressing storyline! ha ha! I know, I only read the first one so I can't say anything...but you should really teach a literature class...you can find the best meanings and parallels in things!

Carrie said...

Hey, so I forgot that I created an email address for Noah because Katie had a friend from CHAT who wanted to email back and forth, therefore Noah wanted his own email. I was helping him "write" emails to people and came over the check out your blog and ha ha, I forgot I was signed in as him...so now Noah has commented on your blog!

Karen said...

Beautifully written! "
Love is worth changing direction for"
...so true!

mandy said...

I agree it could be worrisome for some to read and get a skewed view of love; but being one of the "Edwardless" (but not young and impressionable), I also think it shows it is okay to hold out against the "Jacobs" and not sell out because God has someone set aside for you. When the timing is right, he will be in your life. We just have to trust God's timing and not settle for someone we are "not meant to be" with.

Kelsey and Travis said...

Zombies are coming!!!! Bethany, Vampires? What? I have no idea what this series is but vampires? I love you!!!!

autumnesf said...

I can so relate.


Nicely written...and I loved the books. But as the mom of a 13 year old girl, I am less than thrilled at the desire to be dead with her love. And yes, we talked about that. And we both still love the books.

I hope one day she finds her Edward too (A LONG, long time from now). Like you, I know I've found mine.