There are words constantly rolling around in my head - so very many of them. I think that sometimes there are so many that I can't decide which ones deserve to come out, so instead I stop blogging altogether for awhile. Anyone else have that problem? Do you have so many questions that you want to dive into; thoughts that are just crying out to be shared and contemplated; hopes and fears that you think, "maybe, just maybe, if I type them up and post them it will make them more manageable"?
There are constantly little post-it notes with verses, and quotes and thoughts that have come to me in the middle of making dinner stuck willy-nilly around the computer. I'll be in the middle of a conversation with someone and they will say something I really think is cool and I will pull out my phone so I can type it up in the memo pad.
Then, I have to actually follow through. I have to compile the thoughts, put them in order, and make them mean something that others can understand. And, I have to do it in a way that is pleasing to my Savior.
Sometimes I am angry enough about a situation that I could probably fill a whole page without too much trouble - but it wouldn't be the right words.
Sometimes I am saddened by a situation, and once again, writing on emotion just feels wrong. I want to write with emotion, but not fueled by it.
So, I try to let the emotions cool, the feelings tame themselves a bit, and my point of view grow larger then just my own. Sometimes by the time that is accomplished, the story is so old it seems pointless to write about. But the words are still there, crying for release, and until they come out I don't know that I will get any rest.
So, here are some thoughts that are slightly outdated, and hopefully toned down in emotion enough to be understood. Still, they come from my heart.
Please.... keep reading.
Who writes this stuff?
- I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure. I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at email@example.com