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I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure.  I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at bethylovesandy@yahoo.com

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"For the Lord gives wisdom. From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." Proverbs 2:6 NKJV 
The Message translation puts it this way "God gives out Wisdom free, is plainspoken in Knowledge and Understanding."

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Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Heartbreak


I have had the baby bug all week. Several friends of mine are in the middle of breastfeeding. It sometimes feels like "I should be". I know that I can't say that. Nothing is absolute, and my baby was always "supposed" to be in heaven, but it feels like I should be breastfeeding too.  
 Yesterday a friend of mine sent me this link. I keep saying that I want God to just show me the child or children that I am supposed to have.


I want this one. I'm not saying I heard God's voice saying "This is the one for you." I'm just saying that she reached out her tiny little hand and touched me. Her name is Gifty. She has no parents. She needs someone to love her. She needs a permanent home. She needs someone with good medical insurance because she needs a liver transplant. The part that breaks my heart is that in order for her to live, some other baby has to die. That is just cruel. I want her to live. That doesn't mean I want some other baby to die. How do you make that balance? How do you make that work in your deepest parts? I think my heart just broke. 

 


1 comment:

Dawn said...

I can't see her picture, but if you feel the call to adopt or foster, check into it more. Go for it! As an adopted child myself, it is the greatest gift that you can give someone. And if you are considering taking in a child with special needs there is an even greater need.