I feel like I have been slightly "down" lately. Not my usual cheery, bouncy, "glass is half full" self. In an earlier post I said I would be apologizing later... so, sorry!
I was thinking about pulling the classic "girl" excuse and blaming it on my hormones... but that's probably not quite fair.
Perhaps it would be better to just snap out of it, and find something to be happy about?
Let me instead hand out some thanks, where thanks are due.
Thank you Mary C., for telling me that I am allowed to be down sometimes. For some reason, having permission to be less then cheerful helped me get over it better then anything else!
Thank you Charity for comparing this adoption to a pregnancy, a really really long-distance pregnancy, and the emotions and hormones that go with that. For some reason, that was comforting. I am expecting a child... I am allowed to be slightly hormonal at times. I needed that!
Thank you Air Force Wives (there are several of you) for empathizing about the AF life... we need each other! I am so glad to have you!
Thank you Carrie just for being you. You are a constant for me right now, and there isn't a whole lot of constant in my life!
Thank you Amy for telling me that some random guy was "checking me out" today. I know it is totally vain, but I really really needed that. Andy is fabulous, truly. A wonderful daddy. Great provider. Helps with the dishes and laundry, fixes my car. He amazingly "rocks my world", if you know what I mean.... but he is really sadly lacking in the compliments department. So having a girlfriend tell me that she thought some random guy noticed me... that was a compliment I needed. Cause Andy is pretty much not ever going to tell me I look good!
I feel better. I am still struggling with fear - for Andy, for Gladwys. I have a whole huge blog building up about jealousy... but we'll get to that another day.
Right now I can focus on the positive again, and that feels really good. I like being "me" again.
So, thanks my friends for lifting me up!