I feel like I have been slightly "down" lately. Not my usual cheery, bouncy, "glass is half full" self. In an earlier post I said I would be apologizing later... so, sorry!
I was thinking about pulling the classic "girl" excuse and blaming it on my hormones... but that's probably not quite fair.
Perhaps it would be better to just snap out of it, and find something to be happy about?
Let me instead hand out some thanks, where thanks are due.
Thank you Mary C., for telling me that I am allowed to be down sometimes. For some reason, having permission to be less then cheerful helped me get over it better then anything else!
Thank you Charity for comparing this adoption to a pregnancy, a really really long-distance pregnancy, and the emotions and hormones that go with that. For some reason, that was comforting. I am expecting a child... I am allowed to be slightly hormonal at times. I needed that!
Thank you Air Force Wives (there are several of you) for empathizing about the AF life... we need each other! I am so glad to have you!
Thank you Carrie just for being you. You are a constant for me right now, and there isn't a whole lot of constant in my life!
Thank you Amy for telling me that some random guy was "checking me out" today. I know it is totally vain, but I really really needed that. Andy is fabulous, truly. A wonderful daddy. Great provider. Helps with the dishes and laundry, fixes my car. He amazingly "rocks my world", if you know what I mean.... but he is really sadly lacking in the compliments department. So having a girlfriend tell me that she thought some random guy noticed me... that was a compliment I needed. Cause Andy is pretty much not ever going to tell me I look good!
I feel better. I am still struggling with fear - for Andy, for Gladwys. I have a whole huge blog building up about jealousy... but we'll get to that another day.
Right now I can focus on the positive again, and that feels really good. I like being "me" again.
So, thanks my friends for lifting me up!
3 comments:
oh the love languages!!!! I guess I should be more thankful that Corey gives compliments constantly. It is so unfair because I would love to have him help with the dishes more and the laundry and all that (which he DOES don't get my wrong, but Andy probably enjoys it and wants to do it!) And you would love to have someone who would dish out those compliments which would mean so much more to you....*sigh* oh well. I am anxious about hearing your post about jealousy. I struggle with that SO much. I guess everyone does but for different reasons. I enjoyed reading your post....I have not thought you sounded "down" I have thought you sounded REAL! You got a LOT going on Bethany. You are a hero for handling everything the way you do every single day!
Carrie/Bethany, about hubbies: I think we all want (sometimes) something different than what we have: Sometimes I wish Casey was more macho. But not often! Sounds like you're grateful for your husbands, too!
Bethany, I agree with Carrie--you've sounded REAL. You really are working through alot. God gave you your emotions--all of them! Roll with 'em!
I agree with the others, Bethany, about your posts sounding REAL. You open your heart and invite us to sit on the other end of the couch while you talk. It is wonderful, so don't you dare change or stop expressing yourself with your God given emotions! That is why people can relate to you so well.
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