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I am happily married to an amazing military man who spent 9 years enlisted and is now an Officer in the US Army. We have two amazing boys who are not so little any more! They still infuse every moment of every day with creativity and energy, and make my life an adventure.  I was educated at home, and am now teaching our children - second generation homeschoolers! I try every day to become more like Jesus Christ, and to love like HE does. If you want you can try and catch me at bethylovesandy@yahoo.com

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"For the Lord gives wisdom. From His mouth come knowledge and understanding." Proverbs 2:6 NKJV 
The Message translation puts it this way "God gives out Wisdom free, is plainspoken in Knowledge and Understanding."

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Saturday, January 03, 2009

One moment that changes everything - yet again

 Today, as I walked out to the mailbox at 7:30 pm, in the first week of January, quite comfortable in my tanktop and bare feet, I realized that I am going to miss it here. In the middle of the summer, when it is 100 degrees, and so humid you feel like you could literally wring out the very air that surrounds you, it is harder to remember that. Or when the ants find a way in - inexplicably, yet with persistence, over and over again. Or when you find yet another black widow cheerfully taking up residence in space that you would like to consider your own.
 But today, when it was 70 degrees out, and the sun was gloriously shining, and you drive along with the windows down, and the fresh pine breeze blowing, and the bulbs that you planted last year are already poking their adorable little heads out between the cheerful red mulch that you lovingly spread on ground that you own, for the first time, OWN, yourself... Well, today, it was harder to think about saying goodbye. I will miss this little plot of ground. 
 However, I strongly believe in living the verse that says "Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 Thessalonians 5:18
So, I will choose to give thanks. I can't promise that I will always be successful, and I will apologize in advance for my moments of failure. 
It seems that my year, and all the plans I had for it, have changed, repeatedly, in the last week. First there was Tuesday - the delay in the Officer package. On Wednesday I got an E-mail from our contact in Benin saying that another family was interested in Glawdys, and if we could not finish our paperwork soon and move to the next step then she would be placed with them. That was heartbreaking, scary, and very frustrating. At this exact moment, I can't make anything go any faster - holidays just s l o w things down.
Then, on Friday, I got the final straw for my week of ARGGGHHHH! With less then two months notice, Andy found out he is headed for "the desert" for six months. He was a last minute addition to this trip - they had been trying not to send him, since everyone knows he is in school and trying to do his Officer package - but, they are short manned, and duty calls. We don't argue and we try very hard not to complain. We knew what we were doing when we signed up - the first time and again when we chose to stay in.
 
There is so much to think about. So much to plan, decisions to make, actions to take.

Right this minute though, I just like to sit and stare at him.

It is an unfortunate fact that the weeks before a deployment are insanely full of junk, and they are the moments you most desire to have empty and free. Free to laugh, and play, and kiss and simply stare.

Free to enjoy the little things, to save them up for all those little moments that you won't have later.

Life is full of choices. I choose to make time to be free, right now when it is needed. And more importantly, I choose to give thanks in ALL circumstances.

7 comments:

Daniel & Heidi Hicks said...

Aww Bethany...so sad! You are so encouraging to me! I don't know how you do it when your man is going away, but I know it's the Lord in you! we will be praying for y'all and the decisions to be made!

Mary said...

Bethany, after our chat on Wed, I was sad to see the circumstances change for you yet again. But God sees the whole picture and you will too! It is a choice to give thanks, isn't it? I'm glad that you have made that choice.

http://enjoyingmylife-mary.blogspot.com/2008/12/thank-you-lord.html

Carrie said...

I know you will make the best choices, because you are God's child and that is the only choice for you!! We very much look forward to having you near...isn't it great that God planned it to be that way? That your parents moved here, and we moved here, and crazily, years later, we get to be close and hang out during these times!
I love you and we will be praying for you both!!!!

Christina said...

Once again, I have been brought to tears. How things can change so quickly is beyond any of us. It is all a part of God's plan. I am sorry though that all this has happened to you all, so fast. Just know that we love you and you, Andy and the boys are in our prayers!

Mary Wary said...

I'm going to have to post another comment when I can think of something besides how much that stinking stinks. So give me just a minute.....(I told you I'm not a very good person.)
Let me know if we can do anything for you guys. Anything.

EmileeHopeBinkleyTurner said...

I guess we are always being reminded-again & again, even when we feel like certainly we have learned this already & nothing more can surprise us-how little WE can really plan. LIFE just HAPPENS, and all we can do is pray we make the right choices along the way. I am so sorry Andy has to be gone again, but if there is a bright side to this, which you know I am always looking for the bright side, it is that I will get to see you and the boys more!! I know that doesn't seem like a bright side to you right now, but I just wanted to say I love you sis and again I am so sorry!!

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry. I know it's always a possibility, but the short notice thing makes it even worse. We may be in the same boat - he finds out on the 15th whether he's going in March or September.